What is the only thing constant in this world..Its
CHANGE!!...as much as you hate to admit it, thats the universal truth...i remember from natal stages of life, i was adverse to change...may it have been a change of home, change of school, change of city or even a simple change of clothes, i despised it....Even though i didnt like it, i still had to endure all these changes since my dad was in the navy....every 2 year after i had aclimatized myself to the school, friends, atmosphere of a city there i had to go again to an alien place and dig a place for myself all over again...its was like just as i started to get to like a place and i was thrown into another new city to get adjusted to...i hated this as it made me feel i lacked a sense of identity and i associated myself with a stray soul, wandering in the wilderness tryin to find appeasement...
The first glance of stability i got was when i went to do my BE( electrical engineering or something like that) in nagpur....the coming four years of my life was something that changed me forever....i gained independance , maturity and self-belief over the span of four year....i no longer had to depend on my parents ( well apart from financial needs..dont we all!! )....i had lived life the crazy way and had my share of ups and downs personally and academically.....barely scraped through a lot of the courses after a zillion attempts, felt i walked alone a lotta times along with the obvious atonement of how i had handled my acads...the end of BE left me in the same state of mind as before i joined engineering...what do i wanna do with my life??...me and my closest frn (who also followed the same path, maybe even crazier) had given our GRE which gave us an option, another ray of hope in our perplexed life...but the thought of the next step traumatized me cause not only was it another change in my ever so colourful life but also was a critical step towards my career.
Not knowing what life had in store for me next, i set forth half way across the world to see how my fortunes would fluctuate now...the start was not easy as always...but change was something i was used to even though i didnt like it....comin towards the end of an yr in US and i was staisfied with how things were progressing....the MS course in MIS( Mostly Indian Students) was a piece of cake when compared to engineering and i had secured an intenrship as well which further enhanced my future prospects...my parents were happy and on a personal level i had made some good friends....the 2nd yr of MS bought about few more changes which as always wasnt taken well by me....i had to fight hard with my emotions and though it wasnt the most pleasant part of my life still it ended up being another milestone in my life....the end of MS was the icing on the cake for me,with me securing a job with a top firm and a fitting ending as you may say for the last and most crucial academic achievment for my life( i do not intend to do any more major degree, i hope!!)
Now you would say, well what else would i want in life...i have a good job, good old frns are still around, even got a car...but only for the way all that has changed my life....Ya, that dreaded change is something i am having to encounter once again....everytime i feel i have been upto the challenge and it wont defeat me again, it just comes right back at me even harder....life after starting my first job hasnt been easy to adjust to, to say the least...i miss the late nights i used to have wasting time doing nothing productive like chatting on the messenger or seeing movies or talkin to frns....the awesome parties at "CLUB 222" which can never be relived....the hours of cooking togehter making dishes which tasted exquisite cause of the collaborative effort put into it...sigh!!....all those will never come back...its like the famous serial "FRIENDS" , what made the serial click was not one single person but the whole array of characters which made this show one of the most successful sitcoms....tht's what i miss, the whole environment under which we all 'friends' spent our first 2 yrs in US and endured all the highs and lows to be still frens at the end of it all...
My first trip to college station after starting job was hard...as soon as i entered University drive my eyes became moist reliving all those memories and realizing i was going back to a whole new place...the place seemed alien to me now without all my frns and the circumstances under which it got us all together....standing on the staircase of our old home, i was filled with a sense of nostalgia and the memories of a different life
I know i have to get past this change cause right around the corner there is yet another one raring to have a crack at me...I am not afraid just a bit skeptical of how it will affect my life the next time and hopefully not take me longer to recuperate....till then i am happy to sit back ,relax and live the roller coater ride called "LIFE".
I ended up watching 'Gone Baby Gone' on a regular friday night which really did make me want to write a movie review on my blog.....I had read prior to watching the movie that it was Ben Affleck's directorial debut where he has directed his upcoming younger brother and actor Casey Affleck....The film also boasted of a stellar cast consisting of Morgan Freeman, Ed Harris and Michelle Monaghan to name a few...
